[The following is the greater part of a letter written by H.
P. Blavatsky some years ago at a time when, subsequent
to the Psychical Research Society's Report on Theosophical
phenomena, not only the public but fellow members of the
Society were doubting her, doubting themselves,
doubting the Adepts. Its publication now will throw upon
her character a light not otherwise obtainable. Written
to an intimate and old friend for his information and benefit,
it bears all the indicia of being out of the heart from one old
friend to another. Those who have faith in her and in the
Masters behind her will gain benefit and knowledge from its perusal.
Now what you advise me to do, I have
for the last three or four years attempted most seriously.
Dozens of times I have declared that I shall not put the
Masters any worldly questions or submit before Them family and
other private matters, personal for the most part.
I must have sent back to the writers dozens and dozens of letters
addressed to the Masters, and many a time have I declared
I will not ask Them so and so. Well, what was the
consequence? People still worried me. "Please,
do please, ask the Masters, only ask and tell Them
and draw Their attention to" so-and-so. When I refused
doing it _____ would come up and bother, or _____,
or someone else. Now it so happens that you do not seem
to be aware of the occult law to which even the Masters are subject
Themselves whenever an intense desire is concentrated
on Their personalities: whenever the appeal comes from
a man of even an average good morality, and all the desire
is intense and sincere even in matters of trifles (and to Them
what is not a trifle?): They are disturbed by
it, and the desire takes a material form and would haunt
Them (the word is ridiculous, but I know of no other) if
They did not create an impassable barrier, an Akasic wall
between that desire (or thought, or prayer) and so isolate
Themselves. The result of this extreme measure is that
They find Themselves isolated at the same time from all those
who willingly or unwillingly, consciously or otherwise,
are made to come within the circle of that thought or desire.
I do not know whether you will understand me; I hope you will.
And finding Themselves cut off from me, for instance,
many were the mistakes made and damages realized that could
have been averted had. They not often found Themselves
outside the circle of theosophical events. Such
is the case ever since . . . , throwing Their
names right and left, poured in torrents on the
public, so to say, Their personalities, powers,
and so on, until the world (the outsiders, not only
Theosophists) desecrated Their names indeed from the North
to the South Pole. Has not the Maha Chohan put His foot
on that from the first? Has He not forbidden Mahatma K.
H. to write to anyone? (Mr. _____ knows well all
this.) And have not since then waves of supplications,
torrents of desires and prayers poured unto Them? This is one
of the chief reasons why Their names and personalities
ought to have been kept secret and inviolable. They
were desecrated in every possible way by believer and unbeliever,
by the former when he would critically and from his
worldly standpoint examine Them (the Beings beyond and outside
every worldly if not human law!), and when the latter positively
slandered, dirtied, dragged Their names in the mud!
O powers of heaven! what I have suffered there are no
words to express it. This is my chief, my greatest
crime, for having brought Their personalities to public
notice unwillingly, reluctantly, and forced into
it by ____ and ____ .
Well, now to other things. You and the Theosophists
have come to the conclusion that in every case where a message
was found couched in words or sentiments unworthy of Mahatmas
it was produced either by elementals or my own falsification.
Believing the latter, no honest man or woman ought
for one moment to permit me, such a FRAUD,
to remain any longer in the Society. It is not a piece
of repentance and a promise that I shall do so no longer that
you need, but to kick me out if you really think
so. You believe, you say, in the Masters,
and at the same time you can credit the idea that They should
permit or even know of it and still use me! Why,
if They are the exalted Beings you rightly suppose Them to be,
how could They permit or tolerate for one moment such a deception
and fraud? Ah, poor Theosophists little you do
know the occult laws I see. And here and others are
right. Before you volunteer to serve the Masters you
should learn Their philosophy, for otherwise you
shall always sin grievously, though unconsciously and involuntarily,
against Them and those who serve Them, soul and body
and spirit. Do you suppose for one moment that what
you write to me now I did not know for years? Do you think that
any person even endowed with simple sagacity, let alone
occult powers, could ever fail to perceive each time suspicion
when there was one, especially when it generated in
the minds of honest, sincere people, unaccustomed
to and incapable of hypocrisy? It is just that which killed me,
which tortured and broke my heart inch by inch for years,
for I had to bear it in silence and had no right to explain
things unless permitted by Masters, and They commanded
me to remain silent. To find myself day after day facing
those I loved and respected best between the two horns of the
dilemma either to appear cruel, selfish, unfeeling
by refusing to satisfy their hearts' desire, or,
by consenting to it, to run the chance (9 out of 10) that
they shall immediately feel suspicions lurking in their minds,
for the Master's answers and notes ("the red and blue
spook-like messages," as ____ truly calls them) were
sure in their eyes again 9 times out of 10 to be of that
spook character. Why? Was it fraud? Certainly not.
Was it written by and produced by elementals? NEVER.
It was delivered and the physical phenomena are produced
by elementals used for the purpose, but what have they,
those senseless beings, to do with the intelligent
portions of the smallest and most foolish message? Simply this,
as this morning before the receipt of your letter, at
6 o'clock, I was permitted and told by Master to
make you understand at last you and all the sincere,
truly devoted Theosophists: as you sow, so you
will reap. . . .
It is ALL YOU, Theosophists,
who have dragged down in your minds the ideals of our MASTERS,
you who have unconsciously and with the best of intentions and
full sincerity of good purpose DESECRATED
Them by thinking for one moment and believing that THEY
would trouble Themselves with your business matters, sons
to be born, daughters to be married, houses to be
built, etc., etc. And yet, all those
who have received such communications being nearly all sincere
(those who were not have been dealt with according to other
special laws), you had a right, knowing of
the existence of Beings who you thought could easily help you,
to seek help from Them, to address Them, once that
a monotheist addresses his personal God, desecrating
the GREAT UNKNOWN a million
of times above the Masters by asking Him (or IT)
to help him with a good crop, to slay his enemy,
and send him a son or daughter; and having such a right in the
absolute sense, They could not spurn you off and refuse
answering you, if not Themselves, then by ordering
a Chela to satisfy the addressers to the best of his or hers [the
chela's ability. How many a time was I no Mahatma shocked
and startled, burning with shame when shown notes from
Chelas exhibiting mistakes in science, grammar,
and thoughts expressed in such language that it perverted entirely
the meaning originally intended, and having sometimes expressions
that in Thibetan, Sanscrit, or any other Asiatic
1anguage had quite a different sense. As in one instance
I will give.
In answer to Mr._____ 's letter referring to some
apparent contradiction in His. The Chela who was
made to precipitate Mahatma K. H.'s reply put,
"I had to exercise all my ingenuity to reconcile the
two things." Now the term "ingenuity" used
for and meaning candor, fairness, an obsolete word
in this sense and never used now, but one meaning this
perfectly, as even I find in Webster, was misconstrued
by Massey, Hume, and I believe even _____ to mean
"cunning," "cleverness," "acuteness"
to form a new combination so as to prove there was no contradiction.
Hence: the Mahatma was made apparently to confess most
unblushingly to ingenuity, to using craft to reconcile
things like an acute "tricky lawyer," etc.,
etc. Now had I been commissioned to write or precipitate
the letter I would have translated the Master's thought
by using the word "ingenuousness," "openness
of heart, frankness, fairness, freedom from
reserve and dissimulation," as Webster gives it,
and opprobrium thrown on Mahatma K. H.'s character
would have been avoided. It is not I who would have
used "carbolic acid" instead of "carbonic
acid," etc. It is very rarely that Mahatma
K. H. dictated verbatim, and when
He did there remained the few sublime passages found in Mr.
Sinnett's letters from Him. The rest he would say write
so-and-so, and the Chela wrote often without knowing a
word of English, as I am now made to write Hebrew and Greek
and Latin, etc. Therefore the only thing I can be
reproached with a reproach I am ever ready to bear tho'
I have not deserved it, having been simply the obedient
and blind tool of our occult laws and regulations is of
having concealed that which the laws and regulations of my
pledges did not permit me so far to reveal. I owned myself
several times mistaken in policy, and now am punished for
it with daily and hourly crucifixion.
Pick up stones, Theosophists; pick them up, brothers
and kind sisters, and stone me to death with them for such
Two or three times, perhaps more, letters were precipitated
in my presence by a Chela who could not speak English and
who took ideas and expressions out of my head. The phenomena
in truth and solemn reality were greater at those
times than ever. Yet they often appeared the most suspicious,
and I had to hold my tongue, to see suspicion
creeping into the minds of those I loved best and respected,
unable to justify myself or say one word! What I suffered Master
alone knew. Think only (a case with Solovioff's
at _____) I sick in my bed: a letter of his, an
old letter received in London and torn up by me, rematerialized
in my own sight, I looking at the thing.
Five or six lines in the Russian language in Mahatma K.
H.'s handwriting in blue, the words taken
from my head, the letter old and crumpled travelling
slowly alone (even I could not see the astral hand of the
Chela performing the operation) across the bedroom, then
slipping into and among Solovioff's papers who was writing
in the little drawing-room correcting my manuscript, Olcott
standing closely by him and having just handled the papers,
looking over them with Solovioff, the latter finding it,
and like a flash I see in his head in Russian the thought
"The old impostor (meaning Olcott) must have put it there"! and
such things by hundreds.
Well this will do. I have told you the truth, the
whole truth, and nothing but the truth, so
far as I am allowed to give it. Many are the things
I have no right to explain if I had to be hung for it.
Now think for one moment. Suppose _____ receives an
order from his Master to precipitate a letter to the _____ family,
only a general idea being given to him about what he has to write.
Paper and envelope are materialized before him,
and he has only to form and shape the ideas into his English
and precipitate them. What shall the result be? Why his
English, his ethics and philosophy his style all round.
"A fraud, a transparent FRAUD!"
people would cry out, and if any one happened to see
such a paper before him or in his possession after it was
formed, what should be the consequences?
Another instance I cannot help it, it is so suggestive.
A man, now dead, implored me for three days
to ask Master's advice on some business matter,
for he was going to become a bankrupt and dishonor his family.
A serious thing. He gave me a letter for Master
"to send on." I went into the back parlor and
he went down stairs to wait for the answer.
Now to send on a letter two or three processes are used:
(1) To put the envelope sealed on my forehead, and then,
warning the Master to be ready for a communication, have
the contents reflected by my brain carried off to His perception
by the current formed by Him. This, if the
letter is in a language I know; otherwise, if in
an unknown tongue, (2) to unseal it,
read it physically with my eyes, without understanding
even the words, and that which my eyes see is
carried off to Master's perception and reflected in
it in His own language, after which, to be
sure, no mistake is made. I have to burn the letter
with a stone I have (matches and common fire would never do),
and the ashes caught by the current become more minute than atoms
would be, and are rematerialized at any distance
where Master was.
Well, I put the letter on the forehead opened,
for it was in a language of which I know not one word,
and when Master had seized its contents I was ordered to burn
and send it on. It so happened that I had to go in my bedroom
and get the stone there from a drawer it was locked in.
That minute I was away, the addresser, impatient
and anxious, had silently approached the door, entered
the drawing-room, not seeing me there, and seen
his own letter opened on the table. He was horror-struck,
he told me later, disgusted, ready to
commit suicide, for he was a bankrupt not only in fortune,
but all his hopes, his faith, his
heart's creed were crushed and gone. I returned,
burnt the letter, and an hour after gave him the answer,
also in his language. He read it with dull staring eyes,
but thinking, as he told me, that if there were
no Masters I was a Mahatma, did what he was told,
and his fortune and honor were saved. Three days later
he came to me and frankly told me all did not conceal his doubts
for the sake of gratitude, as others did and was
rewarded. By order of the Master I showed him how it
was done and he understood it. Now had he not told
me, and had his business gone wrong, advice notwithstanding,
would not he have died believing me the greatest imposter on
So it goes.
It is my heart's desire to be rid forever of any
phenomena but my own mental and personal communication with Masters.
I shall no more have anything to do whatever with letters or phenomenal
occurrences. This I swear on Masters' Holy Names,
and may write a circular letter to that effect.
Please read the present to all, even to _____. FINIS
all, and now Theosophists who will come and ask me to tell
them so and so from Masters, may the Karma fall on
their heads. I AM FREE.
Master has just promised me this blessing !!
Path, March, 1893
H. P. Blavatsky